i’ve always been a sucker for rebirth in between life
reinventing yourself
leaving everything behind
it’s what kept me going my whole life
so everytime i sit by the sea, i cry
say goodbye
and when i emerge myself into the water
i beg to wash what was away
set me free
it works
but only for that very moment
once i’m dry
back on the land of the dead
my soul is tainted with all the darkness i could find on the bottom of the ocean
blue really is a lonely color
i like being in a room full of strangers
because they don’t know me and most of them never will
i don’t like bathrooms
because most of them have mirrors
they force me to look at myself
to question who i am
and i’m scared
because i don’t want to admit
no matter where i go, i’m still the same
so believe me when i tell you, your demons follow you till’ the end of the world
they still sing me to sleep every night
so yes after a while
all the secrets i try to desperately hide come to the surface
my shadow
the mask gets ripped off
and bright yellow flowers grow on my scars from the soil that is my pain
i guess in a way it’s kinda beautiful
that a phoenix is just as much a bird as it is it’s ash