rebirth

i’ve always been a sucker for rebirth in between life

reinventing yourself 

leaving everything behind

it’s what kept me going my whole life

so everytime i sit by the sea, i cry

say goodbye

and when i emerge myself into the water

i beg to wash what was away

set me free

it works

but only for that very moment

once i’m dry

back on the land of the dead

my soul is tainted with all the darkness i could find on the bottom of the ocean

blue really is a lonely color

i like being in a room full of strangers

because they don’t know me and most of them never will

i don’t like bathrooms

because most of them have mirrors

they force me to look at myself

to question who i am

and i’m scared

because i don’t want to admit

no matter where i go, i’m still the same

so believe me when i tell you, your demons follow you till’ the end of the world

they still sing me to sleep every night

so yes after a while

all the secrets i try to desperately hide come to the surface

my shadow

the mask gets ripped off 

and bright yellow flowers grow on my scars from the soil that is my pain

i guess in a way it’s kinda beautiful

that a phoenix is just as much a bird as it is it’s ash

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